The past few weeks have been pretty hectic for me. I feel like I've been running around constantly and unable to catch a break. I've been involved with a few projects, helping the animal shelter do a bit of re-branding, dealing with personal/family issues, making wedding preparations, working to get more shoots on the calendar, having consultations, doing promotional work, getting my ass kicked at work, and to top it all off, I hit a deer with my car last Thursday. For a while, it seemed like everything was spiraling out of control and it felt as if I was drowning. I could see the surface, but no matter how hard I struggled, I just couldn't get there. Then, this week, things finally seemed like they were taking a turn for the better and I'm pleased to report that I'm now able to catch my breath.
If you've been following my work, you've undoubtedly heard about my Project:365...where I've been trying to motivate myself by taking pictures and posting a new one each day as a visual diary of this year. Sadly, with all of the activity lately, this project has been pushed to the back burner and hasn't been updated in quite some time. With this being such a busy and important year for me, I've thought about giving up on it many times to focus on everything else. But, no matter what comes up, I can't bring myself to quit...I keep coming back to it. I'm not sure why, but I feel like if I don't finish, I would be letting my dad down. He was so proud of me no matter what I did and I can just hear him telling me to keep going and to never give up. That's just the kind of guy he was...he could have 50 projects going, but he never gave up on one until it was finished. He just kept pushing himself forward. I have always found that inspiring and really want to be more like him. In light of this little self-reflection I've had, I've decided to push forward and achieve my goals at any cost. There are so many things I want to accomplish and I finally realize that I'll never get any of them done if I don't have the kind of mentality that my dad had.
I'm currently working as often as I can to keep taking pictures and eventually I will welcome the 365 back with a massive photo upload. To all of you who have been looking for new shots, I assure you, they are coming. On a side note, I'm also working to get myself started on shooting weddings with some fellow photographers and, with any luck, I'll be able to do them on my own soon. I've got a lot of big plans and I'm more determined than ever to ride this thing out and see where it takes me. Everything may click into place or it may not, but I'll never be able to live with myself if I don't give it all I have.