A Day of Remembrance

It's taken me several days to write this post. I can't bring myself to do it all at once...just can't keep it together long enough. I'm still in disbelief. I can't believe it's already been a year. The wounds still seem so fresh, but yet so much time has passed.

This weekend, December 4th, marked the 1 year anniversary of my dad's passing. He fought a variety of medical ailments, but ultimately it was respiratory failure that took its toll. For years he suffered in constant pain, but he never let is dampen his spirits. His outlook on life was an inspiration to those who knew him. However, one day that cheerful smile was gone...and the pain was over.

I'm glad to know that he can finally be at peace, and that he doesn't have to suffer anymore...but still...some part of me wishes he could still be here with us. I just wish he could see all we've accomplished in just a year. A whole year of events gone by in the blink of an eye...strides with my photography, my wedding, house shopping, talking about making a family, etc...all of it done without him. I feel cheated. I wonder why my dad had to be taken at such an important time.

I wish I could understand.

I wish you could see where we are now.

I wish you could see the man I've become.

Rest in peace dad. I love you and miss you.

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